*sigh*

♥~*I'm back!*~♥

Yeah it's been a little while since I've posted...kinda?

and I'm pretty sure the the last thing I should do is rant... because ranting is bad in the first place... But here I go, yet again......

Envy has always been something that get's to me.... to a point where I am absolutely livid! I can't stand the thought of my friends talking to other people, hanging out with other people, talking ABOUT other people... mostly if it's people that I don't know, or don't like.
It's really... really wrong of me to be like that... It's something I'm trying to work on... But I can't help it...

I think it's getting worse now that I only have a couple friends left around here.... others have moved away...
It makes me sad, and the way I deal with sadness is being angry... Angry all the time about tiny little things... God it's like I'm on a never-ending period don't you think? (laughs) But really... It's something that I MUST STOP!! I get mad when people even mention other people's names... (is this a form of anger issues??)

I end up taking everything out on everyone else too... And yet again, it's another bad thing for me to do.....

On top of all that, Disappointment... Not saying why I'm disappointed, because it's retarded and I can't bring myself to look any dumber then I already do...
But I've never dealt with it well.... It's something that I usually don't have to deal with because I'm pretty good at getting my way... (I'm not spoiled, just really, really talented at this. hah...) so when I do have to deal with it, I act like a spoiled brat and pout....

(laughs) I'm pretty sure my friends only like me because they've known me a loooonngggg looooooooooong time......
I don't really have any news.... or any good updates because the last few days have been pretty

~~~~~EMO~~~~~

I need to get a grip!!!! I'm confused with my actions.... because up until lately, I'm pretty level-headed....


All until later...

♥Nana~out♥