So much sleep.....

Okay... so my hell has officially started.


And I begun it by sleeping 15 hrs.

I went out with Yuka (will update about that later)

Got back at 6 ish.. fell asleep and woke up at 8 AM the next day.... Or so I thought?

Turns out I only slept 2 hrs......
OMG it's so weird.... if felt like forever....
and it looked like it was early in the morning... O_O;

I'm so out of it right now....
I just want to lay in bed and rot away...
DX
I'm sitting here wondering if I'm going to get worse and if I can recover after they get back....

Also, nerves about Kristi's Japanese girl are strangely getting to me...
Like, I don't even know what I'm worried about...
just her in general I guess.
I want to meet her kinda..
because it would be fun and the only way to see them for the month....
but on the other hand I'm so envious that they got to have a girl from Japan come, when we couldn't for no reason at all....
So that's getting to my head...
because they are having a great summer at those goddamned camps, and they get to have the girl come and go to crap and see their friends...
when I sit here, with NOTHING to do....
It's really depressing, and I fucking hate it.
I just want to scream it makes me so mad!!!!

I can't get anything to cheer me up and I let everything upset me....



I have a feeling that I might have to be drug to see them by force...

So here is a message to you guys.

if your trying to get me to come over and I'm refusing, just come to my house.
I promise I'll be here.
probably in my room, odds are on my bed pouting.

I'm not good at being a bitch face to face.



I'm off to make stuff for Kumoricon.

bye.